Here We Go

Oh my god so rindu dengan blog ni. Seriously. All shit and tahi yang memalukan diri sendiri ada dalam ni dari zaman spelling macam jetjet rempit je. LOLOLOL. Every human evolving. Me too. So I don't fking malu pun from my mistakes. I live my life whole-heartedly. We learn from each and every mistake. Now dah post dekat tumblr je lagi senang. michinagassi.tumblr.com  . Semua tempat nak luahkan takpuas hati ke sedih ke happy semua kat situ.

Long long story.

get back to this old full of memories blog. sangat sangat rindu.
baru changed my age from 17 to 20. time flies so fast.
from MJSC MZMS to MULTIMEDIA UNIVERSITY.
i didn't found my own coding for the description under tabs' button.
sangat tak matured. hm
maybe no people will see this blog again. nobody interested in blog lagi i think.
people now busy scrolling their twitter's timeline or facebook or instagram.
takda masa for scrolling something boring lama lama.

i'm still blogging sometimes in tumblr or my private love story blog or writing my diary.
i want it to be private because i'm not confident with my life. many shits happened.
and i don't want my blog to be the companion of my tears lagi and me, writing an emotional diary about my feelings. i better write it in diary. so i can burn it dramatically later.

오랜만이야.

Haishh. My life sekarang makin kucar kacir. Terabur sini sana. Tak teratur. Tak tersusun. Bila ade free time je menghadap lappy then cari movie nak tengok. macam tu ajelah. tengok cite korea. cite korea. itu jelah. sekarang mood tak berapa nak elok. tiba tiba sedih. entah. sampai taktahu kenape sedih. tapi sedih sangat hati ni rasa. kenapa ek. pelik lah. dah lama tak macam ni.

Alamanda-ing

My day starts.

Bangun bangun and saya dapat bbm from my lovely sayangg.

He said nak ikut dia pegy kajang tak?

Hmm. Macam mane plan saya dgn housemate nak pegy Alamanda ek.

Then saya decide utk ikut dia kejap.

Kitorang balik rumah dia dulu.

Then gerak to OTWC Bangi for lunch.

Then pegy lah Kajang tu.

Then settle semua.

Mama dia hantar saya ke Alamanda.

Avengers ticket full.

Tak dapat tengok :(

Bersama rakan rakan lelaki 4 orang, kami pegy arcade then pegy karokss.

Hee. 10 orang. Ramai lah jugak. Sempit bilik tu jadiknyaa.

Fun lah. Then balik rumah selepas beli dinner. That's all

Yang penting, I'm having fun with you even for a while, sayang. Hee :D

What a girl wants!

I'm not pretty. I'm not beautiful as others.

But all I have is a heart to take care of.

Saya tak mintak kereta BMW sebijik.

Saya tak mintak diamond rings utk bukti cinta.

Saya tak mintak awak jadi slave semata mata utk tunjuk pengorbanan.

Saya tak mintak awak utk dengar semua kata-kata saya.

Saya tak mintak orang se handsome Lee Min Ho.

Saya tak mintak ape ape pun material utk bukti cinta.

Saya tak mintak awak jadi sweet macam dalam movies pun.

Semua perempuan inginkan hubungan yang macam dalam movies.

Sweet je.

But saya tak kesah kalau saya tak dapat.

Siapa je saya ni untuk dilayan macam puteri.

What a girl wants is to have a guy that could stole their heart and make them feel special !

Saya cuma nak hati awak je.

Saya cuma nak awak faham hati saya je.

Saya cuma nak rasa cinta yang sebenar.

Saya nak cinta dan sayang tu je.

Saya tak mintak lebih pun.

What I want is just your heart.

Please understand me.

'I LOVE YOU' is just a word.

It will not give any meaning kalau orang tu sebut tanpa perasaan cinta.

Word is only word.

It won't change a feelings.

Am I asking too much?

I guess it's not cost any money to give me all your love.

Is it a girl is not enough for a guy?

Is it must be another person in a relationship?

Why there's no such things like a fairytale?

My heart says that you love me.

I've tried to think positive.

Bila ada something yang saya rasa mampu rosakkan hubungan kita,

I'd tried my best to think positive and tell myself that you're in love with me.

Bukan yang macam saya fikirkan.

It's hurt.

Seriously hurt.

Bila saya dah dapat bukti depan mata, lagilah saya tak mampu nak tahan.

Saya tetap akan buat tak tahu.

And when I have free time to think about our relationship,

I'll cry and cry and cry.

I can't stand to be like this.

The very first time when we're in love,

I keep in my mind that I must do my best in this relationship.

I don't want it to be ruin just like before.

I'd stopped texting other guys just to make you happy.

I'm afraid that nanti ada penghalang and masalah dalam relationship ni.

I'd try my best untuk tak make any problem.

I'd left my VIF just to make sure that I'm focusing on you.

I'd always tell myself that I should take care of your heart.

Because I love you so much.

Hmm. Saya taknak saya sebabkan ada orang ketiga dalam relationship ni.

Tapi.

Rupanya saya yang selalu terluka.

It's not your fault.

Saya tak mintak kata kata maaf.

Saya cuma nak penyelesaian.

Sama ada hubungan ni terus berakhir

Atau masalah tu akan selesai.

Bukan dengan kata maaf dan perkara tu akan repeat again and again.

Yes. Saya dah biasa terluka.

Dah kebal dah.

Tapi saya tak mampu tahan dari sedih sebab saya sayang awak sangat kot.

Saya terlalu amik serious dalam hubungan kita kot.

Perempuan mana yang tak sedih kalau kekasih dan kawan biasa sama je panggilan tu.

Memanglah apa yang penting ialah perasaan.

Tapi manusia express their feelings by words.

Perempuan just nak rasa yang dia betul betul special! tu je.

Hm. I'm such a burden for you.

I don't know what to do next.

Each time I think about this problem, my tears could not stop falling macam sekarang ni.

Nadzirah!!! Kenapa kau lemah sangat ni!!!!

Saya tak normal

Haha. Dah lama tak post. Busy je kot. Takde masa nak tulis tulis ni.

Kalau ada masa nak typing kat lappy ni pun mesti typing Visual Basic tu haa. penuh dengan coding. Haishh.

Out of sudden saya rasa seperti saya tak normal dan saya ni macam manusia tak berguna.

Kenapa ye? tapi seriously rasa macam tu.

And ade moment when I'm realize that I dah changed a lot!

A lot in the way that I'm thinking and bla bla bla..

And in size too! Kenapa saya makin gemuk di Cyber ni ?

Kat Melaka dulu tak pun.

Padahal kat cyber ni jauh kot class.

Tapi kerja saya balik class asyik tido tido tido.

Yelaa! Saya penat. Awak tahu ape.

Haha. Tibe tibe emotional gilaa.

Weekend ni tanak kelua alamanda ke ape kot. Asyik jalan jalan je keje. Mane takhabes duit.

Dah lah my sweety hunny tak ade. Dia balik rumah. Lagilah :'(

Lepas tu sekarang saya da tak tahu nak bergaul socialize dekat social network.

Rasa macam awkward nak tegur orang ke ape.

Maybe dah berpisah beberapa bulan dan rasa macam 'errrrrrr. Ape ek?'

Haha. Even FaceBook and Twitter online 24/7 :)

Tapi saya macam invisible.invisible.

Ni yang nak nyanyi lagu skylar grey ni. invisible je kan.

Okaylah. Saya sudah membebel panjang.

Conclusion di sini ialah mudah-mudahan saya menjadi manusia yang sangat berguna di sisi masyarakat, bangsa, negara and yang penting, agama. Yeahh!

Malaysia Boleh. Grrr !!

Saya ponteng :(

Saya nak balik rumah haritu takde kawan tau.

Lepas tu, parents amik balik dan esok hari rabu baru pulang ke MMU di atas sebab sebab tertentu.

Ponteng kelas 2 hari. Rasa bersalah.

Sebab tertinggal pelajaran banyak kott.

Haishh !

Doa moga moga esok saya berjaya bersama project saya. :)

Haii.

Hai ! Salam satu Malaysia. Haha.

hm. semalam dapat berita Rohaizad Bakari @ apek jagung meninggal.

Sangat sangat lah terkejut tau.

Even tak rapat pun, tapi at least kenal and penah tegur2.

Last tegur dia time arwah pidot meninggal dia ajak join ziarah. Tu je.

Hilang dah lagi seorang senior.

Hari jumaat haritu pegy tengok Wrath of the Titan dekat Alamanda selepas shopping barang dapur. Cerita tu best. Hee.

Hm. Sekarang ni tengah plan nak buat essay yang berlambak tapi takde idea lah pulak.

P/s: Saya tersangatlah kecewa dengan anda :'(

LALALA

My beloved sayang tu demammm. Haihhh.

Harini takkelua ruma langsung. Makan dekat ruma Najat je.

Hmm.

Dear friend, kenapa kau kena kacau hidup aku sedangkan aku tak sentuh sikit pun pasal hidup kau. I thought kita kawan. But KAWAN tu lah yang dah buat aku sakit hati. Yeahh. I know perangai kau memang macam tu. Aku tak kesah. Tapi kenapa sampai ganggu hidup aku. Haihh.

Nak balik rumah weekend ni pun takboleh. Yus ade volley and Raja tanak join. haihhh

Finally :)

Today. SPM results.

Yesterday evening, after I had finished my class, me and my beloved sayang took a bus to Alamanda to wait for his mum.

Next, pegy makan dekat mamak. OMG! that time memang cuak habis ouhhhh.

Then balik ruma dia.

Saya stay same bilik dgn adik dia.

Malam makan pizza and tengok Lawak Ke Der.

And pagi bangun siap siap to Muadzam.

Haihhh. Cuak yang memang dasyat la

Class started.

Memandangkan trimester 1 ni ialah short sem.

So, rase macam nak bunuh diri sikit lah. Haha.

And everything must be in English.

Haihh. baru realize the importance of speaking fluently in English.

kalau tak reti, macam mane nak cakap dengan international student semua tu kan.

Hm. life dekat sini best jugak.

Maybe sebab baru lagi.

And best sebab 24/7 bersama my lovely lovely dear Sayang <3

Hehehe :D

Ready Or Not

Tomorrow nak register sebagai student di Multimedia University di Cyberjaya.

Haish. Macam tak ready je lagi.

Bukan tak ready pack barang or whatever, mental tak ready lagi kot.

Haritu dekat Melaka macam programme main main je.

So, macam takde pape lah kot. kan

Cuaknyaaaa !

But tak sabar nak pegy sana to meet my sayang lah :)

Rindu dekat dia. Hehehe *gatal sikit.

Experience.

After berkayak and wall climbing,

the next day, we had started our journey to Gua Batu Maloi.

It was really awesome.

Even penat macam gilaa, caving sangat lah fun !

gempak lah nampak kelawar and lalu dekat air terjun tu kan. Sangat fun.

Then teruskan perjalanan ke tanjung bidara.

And petang tu sampai sampai je bajet sweet jalan tepi pantai dengan dia. Bhaha.

Seronok. and this week kami tak rapat lah.

Sebab separate kan boys and girls.

Every night ade ceramah. but it's fun.

Main2 dekat pantai. Galah panjang dekat pantai tu.

Seronok sangat. Then bertambah sunburn when kitorang mandi swimming pool berejam jam.

Fun gilaa ! saya sudah boleh terapung. Sangat lah susah dari dulu try tak dapat dapat kan. Haha.

Pagi tadi pulak baru check out resort tu and pegy jalan dataran pahlawan and mahkota parade.

And met Lili for the second time here.

And boleh jalan untuk seketika bersamanya.

Oh. sangat lah indah.

HAHA

Today is a day :)

Yeahh.

I feel bitter and sweet for today.

Bitter was when I read something I don't like in his phones and making me upset and doesn't have good mood to have a lunch with him.

Yeah. It's simple thing.

But I really have those feelings that wanting me to be upset and sad.

I'm not gonna blame my friend.

Haihhh.

Okay okay. Forget about those things.

Okay. Now. What makes me happy for today.

We started our journey to Melaka Central for tickets.

Then, met with Bean, Syuk and Syahmi.

They wanted to go to Mahkota Parade.

Plan nak pegy Jusco je kot awal awal.

Then we took a bus that cost Rm1 only.

Haha. I sat next to him and listened to his mp4.

Nice :)

Then, arrived there. We go to arcade.

And I asked him to karok.

Hehe. Very very nice aa. HAHA

Lagu need you now. Love you like a love song, you took my heart away, won't go home without you and when i look at you.

Seronok. Beronok ronok rasa. HAHA.

Then makan.

Then something tak best happened.

Then okay balik when I met Lili Maisara tersayang di Dataran Pahlawan.

Serious rindu Lili sangat sangat tau.

Then dapat beli Choc roll dekat Starbucks !

Asyik tak dapat je. Finally ada pun. And Cool Blog too.

Thanks awak.Saya sayang awak. 

Round pusing2 penat2 then balik.

The End.

hehe :D

Esok mesti penat tau.

Semoga saya larat mengharungi nya.

InsyaAllah :)

Street Masquerade !

Hey there !

Hehe. Such a tiring day for today.

 Kami dicampak di Bandar Hilir dengan group masing2.

Did our choral speaking for 3 times.

First place kena campak tu memang macam syok sendiri.

Orang Indonesian and orang putih jelah ade bagi response sikit.

Then we move on to muzium color merah and did our choral speaking again in front of Japanese tourists.

Fun !

Then, pegy campur dengan semua group and dah macam Flash Mob dah depan air terjun tu.

Ramai jugak orang tengok.

Yang respond tu semua tourists.

Kitorang dapat negative feedback lah from our people.

Yelah. Bukan culture kita hari Jumaat macam ni menjerit menyanyi shuffling in front of crowd kan.

Yeahh. memang gempak. Shuffle Party tu.

Then bukak lagu Nobody.

And guess what.

Ade minah Korean join.

Hee.

Kitorang happy sangat.

She doesnt know English well.

But we managed to communicate sebab budak2 perempuan ni know a little bit in Korean.

There's our speciality.

And Ucop said Saranghaeyo to that girl.

And she hugged Ucop !

Kitorang semua macam OMG ! Ucop. Untunglaa kau. 

haha

And asih if i'm not mistaken was kissed by a tourist too.

Hee.

Nice day. Tapi sangat panas and penat lahh.

Dengan face painting baju pelik pelik semua tu kan. HAHA

Gempak lah budak MMU MARA 2012 !

This is one of the unforgettable day in my life !

More and More

Banyak sangat nak story ni. Last weekend kami semua Bean Team pegy Dataran Pahlawan and ape Parade ntah depan DP tu.

Fun jugak lah.

Pegy karok dekat arcade.

Pegy main game kereta.

Pegy tengok cerita Underworld 3D dengan Mirul <3 <3

Dengan diorang sekali lah. Hehehe :D

Sangat happy.

And.

About today.

Walaupun sakit perut disebabkan hal perempuan, masih enjoy kot :D

Ada treasure hunt tak treasure sgt pun dekat Jusco, then Tesco then back to Jusco. HAHA

Seronok lahh.

Bean Team first group siap tapi kalah. Haha

Tapi kitorang still enjoy.

 Lepas siap tu ade masa 1hour sebab kitorang siap awal kan kan.

HAHA

So diorang ajak pegy arcade.

Ingat arcade besar macam dekat TC ke mana mana lah.

Rupanya tempat budak2. HAHA

Lenjan je main basketball, kuda, kereta, motor semua.

Takboleh blah semua nak main dance tu. It's fun !

Nanti saya upload gambar gambar sebagai kenangan ye.

:D

Sakit Hati !!

Sekarang tengah duduk dekat bilik.

Bukak tingkap and duduk depan balcony dan azan sedan berkumandang.

Haihh. Sakitnya lahh hati dengan mamat ni.

Heshh. Peninglahh kepala aku. Bengong betul.

Asal aku pulak yg kena terhegeh hegeh dekat dia ajak dia keluar?

Semalam dating was fun.

Hmm. Takde mood aa.

Bukan nak marah dia.

Tapi perlu aa macam tu kan. Menyampah seh.

Friends

I have such a great new friends.

Sure I won't forget my most gorgeous group, VIF. I miss them so much.

Sekarang boleh online pakai network cable sendiri je dekat bilik.

Baru beli tadi. Hehe. Having fun with my friends and having dinner with Intan.

Roti tisu and roti telur for dinner. Cukup kot. HAHA.

Semalam we have a girls night out. Haha.

We went to tutti frutti to invite Nad to join us to go to PHD. 

HAHA. Nice new experience.

But ade mamat budak pizza delivery tu gatal gilaa.

Lambai2 tangan. Huihhh. Gilaaa ke.

Lil bit dizzy rite now because having flu. Haih.

Tonight we must practice and give all out for our musical performance tomorrow.

HAHA :D

MMU :)

Okayy. Tak sangka yang saya sudah mendaftarkan diri sebagai seorang pelajar university.

I'd been forced to speak in English the whole time with the correct pronounciation.

Okayy. It's not easy. You don't realize that you guys pronounced it wrong before.

And it made me just like Ohhhh. It's the correct one.

Maybe I'm the only one that wasn't good in English, but at least I'd try to love to learn English right ?

Mistakes were everywhere. That's why we need to try even it's wrong. The right will correct the wrong.

We will do a show on the Malacca famous place.

With the UNIQUE attire to attract people to see us and join us.

Thank God I got Wan for my group.

The Bean Group is soooo awesoomeee with Bean, aziz, wan, syahmi, raja, and the most crazy is syuk.

The girls are yus, me, intan, amira and shue. Yeah ! Love it. Pity for Nad my twin because we have to be separated during the group making.

Nur Nadhirah Hamdan.

I know her name in Facebook in group MMU 2012 tu.

And on the registration day, she was registering in front of me and we've got some chit chats.

It's fun with her. Maybe memang she's my twin kot. HAHA.

She's a nice happy-go-lucky girl.

And the most important thing is, dia ni sangat lah bising dan talkative just like me.

So, we can share whatever we want.

And rasa macam dah lama sangat kenal dia dah.

I hope our friendship could last longer without no conflicts at all.

Okay. Gotta go !

Busy sangat and every day is a tiring day.

Hahaha :D

Lalala.

HAHA.

CNY 2 hari je ni memang tak cukup lah.

bukan melibatkan diri sendiri pun sebab hari hari memang cuti pun.

Hari demi hari berlalu. Haha

Makin dekat dgn 30hb tu.

Hari tu lah yang akan memberi gambaran for my future life.

Haih. Boleh ke survive ni dekat sana tu.

Rasa macam takpenah masuk asrama lah pulak. Haha

Sebab university is different lah.

Hopefully semua okay okay jelah kan.

Yelah. Rasa lega sikit sebab I have my lovely bucuk bucuk boyfie dekat sana nanti.

Hehe. Dia kan baik. Takdelah aku terpesong terjunam ke arah kejahanaman ni kot ;)

Takboleh tahan betul tengok budak budak remaja zaman sekarang ni.
Dekat FB dekat Twitter sebuk pasal pakwe pakwe mereka.
Haha. Memang lah saya pun tak berahsia pasal relationship ni.
Tapi tak perlu la sikit sikit nak mention nama pakwe.
Macam laa orang lain takde pakwe and you're the one in this whole wide world that got a boyfie.