just nothing but something.

ya allah,thx for all the things you gave to me.
even i still bad for you,you still be there for me.
i really want to book ticket to heaven but i know.
wht would makes me there.
but,im afraid of living in those badly hell.
now,i hve try hard in the name of ramadhan to do wht the must-do-things first.
the things tht i know seems to be hard enough is THAT.
yunie,thx fr the novel.i really love it and made me open my eyes.
to look at this whole world.
and deadly sure tht im just a tiny creature.
God.i know you hear all my cry n all my heart saying.
im hoping something to bring me to the correct way of life.
im tired enough of this kinda life.
ohh,it's hard n hurt me the most.
but,wf sincere heart,i believe.
god always be beside me.
the novel made me believe,
to change from something tht we love were totally hurt.
but,we can adapt it later.
in this ramadhan,
i do well not to do tht again.
n im succeeded.
ustz khir said in a tazkirah when tarawih,
insyaallah.
god will help the ppl tht try to change in ramadhan such as
solat tahajud ramadhan.,insyaallah god will help them to be strong to do in another months.
i love the words.it gave me something.
i didnt tell anyone bout this.
let myself ready n do it fr myself.
i guess,im ready..