byebye.

balik mktb fr three days.
then,im gnna b back by friday:))
gemokk.iloveyouu.
its over btween me n tht uni boy.
im happy wf my life now.
even hurt lahh.tape.i know.
i cn handle it.
i cn fix it.
gogogo,yeahh!!

my cutie kawan-kawan.

class tersayang kott.

LOVE YOU GUYS:)

independence day:))

yesterday,watched 
1957 HATI MALAYA
best sgt2.sumpahh.
lil bit patriotic,but this is wht we must hve in our deep heart:)

its independence day fr me too.
from all those bloody shuuut things.
i love myself now.
tryna fix mane2 yg kurang2 lagi.
insyaallah,Allah will always b beside me:)

todayy.

went to jusco bkt indahh.
carikk new clothes.
new looks itsokay fr me.i hope it will gnna b btter soon.
new life made me smile all my way.
i can live freely n happily in this world.
i guess i cld breathe easily.
i guess i cld held my head up till the sky.
i guess im ready to face the world.
EVENTHOUGH,wthout the bloody buddy:)

my aim fr this 'new' is to hve very very good manners btter thn bfore.
MANNERS tu pnting.to achieve RESPECT from others.

NurNadzirah's weather forecast for tomorrow is....
sunny day kot:)

haha.life.

there's no perfection in life because
there's always been room for improvement.
i love tht quote.
out of sudden,i miss the bmb.
kawan,how's ur holidayy??
God.thx fr the nice sweet kawan-kawan tht always stand beside me.
n gimme strength when i lose my way merayau ntah ke mane.
new looks??hope it is better thn bfore.
fr sure,evn it is horrible to look by ppl,but it is always good by Allah.
i know it:))

guide me.

please.it hurts me.
gimme strength.
let the outside world ruin,but not me.
avoid me from those bad things.
im sick enough.

just nothing but something.

ya allah,thx for all the things you gave to me.
even i still bad for you,you still be there for me.
i really want to book ticket to heaven but i know.
wht would makes me there.
but,im afraid of living in those badly hell.
now,i hve try hard in the name of ramadhan to do wht the must-do-things first.
the things tht i know seems to be hard enough is THAT.
yunie,thx fr the novel.i really love it and made me open my eyes.
to look at this whole world.
and deadly sure tht im just a tiny creature.
God.i know you hear all my cry n all my heart saying.
im hoping something to bring me to the correct way of life.
im tired enough of this kinda life.
ohh,it's hard n hurt me the most.
but,wf sincere heart,i believe.
god always be beside me.
the novel made me believe,
to change from something tht we love were totally hurt.
but,we can adapt it later.
in this ramadhan,
i do well not to do tht again.
n im succeeded.
ustz khir said in a tazkirah when tarawih,
insyaallah.
god will help the ppl tht try to change in ramadhan such as
solat tahajud ramadhan.,insyaallah god will help them to be strong to do in another months.
i love the words.it gave me something.
i didnt tell anyone bout this.
let myself ready n do it fr myself.
i guess,im ready..

fight for our pride.

as i really know from the start,
tht malaikat group tu mmg lame hate me.
but i dont even care.
when it comes to the case tht they kutuk kami kt aspura.
i cant stand anymore.i must do sumthing.
thx buddy,fr the news.we owe you one.
haihh.whts the prob,huh??
we never ever bising2 at the class when ckgu tga ajar
but,korg yg doing things like tht.
we still know manners to respect teachers.
you??no right??
comment pndai.korg ta buat.
at least,we will troubling chaos in the class when prep jek.
is it worst??hell!!
bulan Ramadhan ny jgak cri prob.
stop it lahh.my friends yg strong enough tu pon ta tahan.heshh.
we are all form 4.matured enough kot.
when talk bout love,hebat lahh sgt.
but,otak ta bole gune pon sumenye.

dont you

oh,god!

i keep saying those good words to say to you.

but,i let it to be trash on my mind.

there's something you gotta know.

how i feel when we are together.

you just dont realize

n

dont even care bout those simple things.

what you think is.

you got what do you want from me.

dont you ever turn behind n look for me.

yes,its kinda selfish only to think bout myself.

but now.

im the only one who think bout us.

okayy.i realized who am i in your heart.

when i say

"im just a spare part,rite?"

you will tell me..

you dont like me to saying those words.

but you the one who made me feels like that.

dont you ever think??

you are big enough i guess.

thanks for everything.

thanks for your pain.

thanks for your fake love.

at this time.

i think i could really let you go.

even hard to breath,

i swear i will live without you,baby.

time said "catch me"

wake up.went to cimb.to renew my card tht i gave shazril wrong pin num.
haishh.then,pick up akak at her school.
went to mydin.search fr marriage stuff tht mom hve to help.
my family will go to kelantan this friday.
spe nta kawen.
tomorrow.....n tomorrow n tomorrow.
ticket showed me at 11,im no longer jb.
hve to face the reality tht my life in muadzam now until nxt year.
oh god.nxt year je.after spm,i will go anywhere i want.

lili asked me when i will go back to mzm.
pkok too.
tila too.haishh.
pkok said xtvt week is best bcuz samarintan hndle students.
n other f4 will lead like p.a system n so much more.
i think its cool kot.but,wht cn i do there??

nadzirah's weather forecast fr tomorrow is raining heavily laa kot.
hee:)

confuse.

confuse ble mahu balik hostel.
haishh.hmm.
pkok said she hve mc cuz her allergic going bad.
she said 'kesian wei bdk2 na buat nurturing science tu'
n i felt it too.but.hmm.ntalaa.thts wht im thinking bout.
flsafah mgatakan,ekot kate hati.weeheyy.

cuz imma strong girl.

saying gudbye to crime wsnt a best thing in my life.
but,i hd to admit im no longer hppy wf him.
he ws jst tryna make me cry cry n cry.
so,fr wht.btter fr me to be a loner i guess.
about gemok,fatiha told tht its gnna b perfect n soooo sweet if gemok n i.
adoii.gemok wsnt like me anymore.
suke hunny bunny,he do hve his gf.
suke lapan,batch sndrik ade adore dye damn much.
suke pkcik hawt,takn masok akal dgn c hawt tu.
haish.maknenye,all i hve to do is stdy.
i do hve my oppa rite.so,itssokay mybe.

HER.

friday nite.
the best day fr this year wf teacher i guess.
met her fr her last day.
thx her fr know wht we felt in this hostel.
mcm mane dgn kami nnti.
adoii.
around 1 am,sume da sttle.
we invited her to check in.
she said okayy.
n we sprint to hostel to clean up the room first.
fr sure,blik gerakan BMB lahh.
then,around 1.30,the Y and A round.
fuh.wht they wnt lg huh??
there's 10 ppl in the room la.
-saya.
-tasha.
-fatiha.
-laila.
-her.
-pkok.
-nana.
-shera.
-miza.
-ada.

imagine how we cld sleep in the four bed only.
chit chat til 3.30 am.
wake up at 630.
haishh.sumpa gler.

shower up at 9.30.
ready to balik la.
mao jmpe KGA dulu.
salam her sume.sdey laa.
go to KGA's house.
yunie,ada,laila n i.
yunie jek ade nme kt KGA.adoii.
then,laila.
i hve to cll back my parents.
i went to class.my mom said sudaa.
i went again.he said,en. nordin tade ckp pon.haish.
then,he cl en nordin.
n finally,fuhh.ade pon namaku ini.
gerak bndr.find atm machine fr money.
bought ticket n ape lg.jb lahh.
weeheyy.
sronok laa.
near maghrib,mom ajak jln.
yeahh.cs laa.
then,walk to segget.
haish.pnatt.panas plak tu.
but best laa.akk got her guitar.
but,dont know how to play it yet.whaha
then,went to pizza.ade kkyo skaly.
melantak smpai perut buncit.
wawee.laughing out loud dlm tu.
mcm mantol gler.byk sotry kelaka while tggu pizza.
rmai customers mlm tu.
ktorg pegi tmpoi drive thru pye.mom fr sure wf her kfc shj.
ktorg rmbat jgak dye pye ayam.hihi.,

holidayyyyy.

FRIDAYYYY::

(after school)

'naduk,kau ta balik ke??'

suda berbulu lahh telinga ini mau dga.

jlez tawu??

(after prep)

"kau balik ke??bdk2 kate kau balik."

haishh.spe la bwk cte.dlm hati mmg na balik.

"dah.dah.balik bilik.

story jap."

then,we hd planned tgether mao balik ruma.

cnclusion::

yg tdk berjaya,

tasha.shera.nana.

saya.pkok.yunie.miza.laila.

fatiha n ada blik kelntn.

god!korang the best laa.