This time.
I'm home not for fun.
Wednesday was my seriously bad day.
Monday after Physics paper, we, the F5 aspurians decided to maen hujan.
it's damn exciting!
Running, jumping, dancing and so much more.
But, I thought that I'd take all the precautions to avoid fever as many paper to finish this week.
But, the next day, night prep, in the PSP for Add Maths class,
Luckily I brought the sweater but then I still shivered.
Thanks to my buddy Syamim for the flu medications ;)
That night was worse for me cuz after took that pill,
I went to sleep because it's sleepy and I have to give up on my Add Maths.
Huh! It's Trial MARA okay.
The next day, Wednesday 21st Sept 2011,
wake up in the morn.
Urghh! My head is hurt.
What to do ?? It's already 6!
Doc, I have headache.
Wait, I give you panadol.
Luckily I have that kind of roommate.
Next, I forced myself to take a bath.
It's very cold!
I ran to musolla and perform my Suboh prayer.
Then, go to class and I'm sweating.
God! it's crazy.pagi tu dah lah sejuk gilaa.
Start exam with paper 1.
I found myself about to shiver again.
Quickly I put on my sweater.
My head was heavy and my minds wasn't there.
I keep telling my mind that you have to do the best, Nadzirah!
After finished paper 1,
all of the F5 have to rush to PSP for preparation for paper 2.
God! PSP was so damn cold!
I sat on the place where air cond was slow.
But then it's still made me shiver.
I won't blame my friends not to care about me.
I know they're busy with their preparation.
At that moment, I was crying alone because it's so cold and my hand was pale.
My sweater can't helped me anymore.
While my other friends busy doing Add Maths,
I tried my best to answer those questions on the book,
But a few minutes, I can't stand with that and finally put my head on the desk and close my eyes.
That time, my heart was crying alone and I blamed myself.
Why there's nobody come and take a look at me?
Asking if I'm okay and do something to cure me?
Now I realized that I live without my mom in the college.
My V.I.F do ask me but they can't do anything.
Pity won't change anything.
I tried to be patient and hope for miracle.
But nothing gonna change if I'm the one who doesn't change it!
So, I made my decision to go outside of the PSP for a while.
Alhamdulillah. It's not so cold out there.
Cikgu Mazlan : Awak kenapa? Demam ke ?
Me : Taklah. Selesema je. Sejuk sangat dekat dalam.
Cikgu : Takpelah. Awak duduk dekat meja batu tu. Nanti demam pulak sejuk sangat.
Me : Okay, cikgu!
(sangat terharu with those words)
I rushed to grab my books and told my vif.
No one wants to follow me there.
It's okay then.I don't mind.
I sat there and tried to do revision.
But, a few minutes later,
My body felt something wrong.
Sun doesn't shine that day.
And yet I'm still shivering outside the PSP.
My hands was pale.My nails changed from red to purple-blue like that.
I found myself fell asleep on the chair.
I wake up and tried to focus on my work.
But I failed!
Naduk! Naduk!
I heard the sound from my besties.
OH my! The class had finished.
Lamanya aku tertidur ni!
I opened up my eyes and my head was heavy and dizzy.It's turn round and round.
Azlaila, boleh tak amek kan bag aku ?
Then, she went for lunch and I don't want to.
Can you believe that I don't want to eat chicken?
HAHA ;D
I rushed to my room and sleep!
Shera came to my room and touched my head.
Naduk! Panas ni!
Kejap.aku amek air.
She put towel on my face to give me some coldness.
Temperature time tu memang dasyat kot.sebab haba panas tu dasyat gila.
Awak Nadzirah ye ? Cikgu Normala suruh jawab paper ni dekat sickbay.
Ustazah came to my room.
Perrhh.bapak dia.pening gilaa kepala nak suro jawab.
Jalan nak ke sickbay pon melayang.Adoiyai=='
Sickbay's door was locked.
Miss Ana and Cikgu Wan came.
Solved the problem.
Finally I'd been forced to answer paper 2.
If not, I failed!
Goshh! memang gilaa.
I'd never submitted that type of WORST paper.
This is my first! Rasakan lah!
Tertidur dekat dalam sickbay time jawab tu.
Cuz temperature naik.
Towel ade. Terpaksa amek air masak lap kepala.
Sampai tumpah sikit dekat kertas.
That time, I felt so shit!
Finished up early sebab tak tahan nak muntah rasa.
Say thanks blah blah blah to that ustazah
And rushed to toilet. Luckily tak muntah pon.
Went to sleep.
Bila budak budak semua dah balik, they said aku makin panas.
Luckily Tijid came and lap satu badan.
Azlaila bought my favourite Gardenia but makan sikit gila tak boleh dah
Nak muntah.Thanks to Cikgu Wan for the 100plus and Actifast.
It's helped me a lot.
Malam, Azlaila stay with me.
Fatiha and Miza came to take a look.
I love my friends <3
The next day, at 7am. I told my mom.
Nak balik boleh tak?
Rasa macam nak mati je sakit kalau dekat Muadzam ni.
Everything doesn't comfort me.
Home sweet home, is it ? HAHA
Finally my mom brought me back and
THE END!
Story ni panjang and rasa sangat sensitive about sakit sakit ni.
When I used to get fever, my beloved papa(arwah pidot) will take care of me.
He will accompany me and comfort me.
He made me feel safe.
Even that time, I'm all alone in the sickbay and no one else in Aspuri.
He texted me and made me feel safe by his side :')
How I missed that moment so much.
Right now, there's no one will care about me 24/7 just like he did.
How could I ever forget him and live a new life when no one can replace him?
Ya Allah. Please give me strength.I'm too weak.
P/s:
-You're nothing to me, ICB, you fool!
-PCB, i know you well. Same goes to LMH . Thanks by the way ;)
